Skitzofrantic

Intro: I suffer from depresion. Complete depression. I've had it my whole life. Found out that I had it so bad that uh, I've had anxiety. Been diagnosed with major depression. Lots of phobias, lots of fears. Anxiety, panic attacks. I had depression before, but I never knew that depression could be so bad. Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders. Everything around me closing in, it starts to grow colder. It's like I'm sittin' on death row and waitin' for conclusion. Shit's real fucked up, my brain's filled with much confusion. Do you know what it is to sit at 3am with a gun pressed to your temple on your knees praying? Or in

Momma you made me strong so I could be this way Momma you the reason I'm the women I am today Living everyday, working as hard as I can Treat everyone with respect like a woman can 'Cause you taught me to be strong, taught me to move on Taught me I could do anything if I keep my head on Taught me that I'm a soldier and never back down So I'ma rise to the top with my feet still on the ground You're the most beautiful woman that I have ever seen With your gorgeous smile and eyes- they're bright green You got a heart of gold and your soul is a rainbow With a free spirit taking you where the wind blows I'm thankful for everything you

So since I'm suspended from school for ten days(only 5 more to go as of Friday), I've been bored outta my mind. I haven't visited my DA in ages.. I took a walk down memory lane by reading my old entries, wow, how much I have changed. And how much I haven't changed. Sigh. Anyway, if anyone still cares, or if you want to contact me somehow, feel free to message me at my email michelle_smellsyahoo (https://www.deviantart.com/yahoo) dot com. I didn't want it to become a link, if it still does that on DA. That's the same screename I use for YIM, as well for MSN, just change the yahoo to hotmail. Oh, and I still love the mood "Adoration". lol